I miss my mom alot... Its hard to let go...

Dear Mum,

How have you been? Its been more than a month since I last spoke to you. I miss you alot. I miss sitting by your bedside and chatting with you. I miss you nagging us for making the house messy. I miss you barging into my room asking me to wake up.

Do you remember that its Kendrick's 22nd birthday in 2 days time? We should be having dinner together. Singing a birthday song for Ken and blowing off the 22 fat candles on his birthday cake made by you.

Do you know that its the Mid Autumn festival soon? You would love to have steamboat inviting lots of relatives over. Lighting the pretty floating candles I bought from Bangkok for you. Everyone in the hall nnjoying the mooncake you make.

I wish you are here with me. I so want to give you a huge hug and a big kiss, at the same time telling you how much i miss and love you. You asked me many a time, what am I going to do when you are gone. I said it will not happen. Why did God finally decide to take you away from us? I think Dad misses you the most.

Mommy... I am so alone here. I wish you bring me along with you. Its so painful here... Good Nite Mommy...

Missing you so much,
Candice
11.47pm

Ponder... Ponder... Ponder...

I ponder too often. Its becoming an increasingly difficult habit to kick. Its been acting against me lately since I become obsessed with everything.

Had coffee with Esther this morning. She offered to carve a career path for me and guess what?? I ponder and was worried the whole damn day. Heck! I feel like kicking myself in the ass. Maybe cause her offer make me hesitate about my initial decision to move out.

Heck... I think I rather sleep now... Stop Stop STOP PONDERING!!!

P/S: Dad bought some doggy bones and biscuits for Mocha... Seems like Mocha is winning him over. Talk about someone who cannot be bothered about him... I think not~

2:36 pm in the office…

The ridiculous aircon is blasting away. If office management had made some sense to increase the temperature within the building, we probably be saving a few thousand bucks on our electricity bill. Here I am typing away with frozen limbs. Even my pink winter jacket does not keep me warm anymore. Plus everyone is complaining how ridiculously cold our office is these days. Maybe I should start a fire within the BE square... muahaha burning away credit files to keep us warm... With amount of filing and abnormally high paper wastage everyday... we probably have enuff "fuel" to last us till Christmas. Hooray!!!

Right... my colleagues are probably reading this and if they decided to report me.. I am dead fish...

After my initial excitement earlier this week... I really have no mood to work. I had thought I might not need to work with LAZY people anymore. Alas... the negotiation fell through but I don’t really regret since I was pretty unwilling to leave my beloved team mates. Obviously not referring to the LAZY person. It irks me that I still have to face her given the following reasons:

- ugly and she thinks she is damn gorgeous
- yet wears the least clothing... YIKES! Think short skirt, low cut, bareback, no bra with lots, lots and LOTS of fats spilling out
- has over 300 of her photo as her screensaver
- comes to work at 9+ though we start at 8.30
- always find ways to make us do her work
- always on the phone and smsing
- and the long list just goes on...

For those of you who thinks that I am exaggerating, I am not lor, she is sibei disgusting! Damn... I feel so mean but she really irritates me!!!

Haha... if I feel mean enuff for the day I might just post her big fat photo up here.

Have a good weekend people... I need a good rest

I am upset at how i view life... always been all serious... i wish i loosen up and break some rules.

I am OVER YOU... hahah!

Life is just beginning and its gonna be the best years of my life.

I miss my mom alot... Its hard to let go...

Dear Mum,

How have you been? Its been more than a month since I last spoke to you. I miss you alot. I miss sitting by your bedside and chatting with you. I miss you nagging us for making the house messy. I miss you barging into my room asking me to wake up.

Do you remember that its Kendrick's 22nd birthday in 2 days time? We should be having dinner together. Singing a birthday song for Ken and blowing off the 22 fat candles on his birthday cake made by you.

Do you know that its the Mid Autumn festival soon? You would love to have steamboat inviting lots of relatives over. Lighting the pretty floating candles I bought from Bangkok for you. Everyone in the hall nnjoying the mooncake you make.

I wish you are here with me. I so want to give you a huge hug and a big kiss, at the same time telling you how much i miss and love you. You asked me many a time, what am I going to do when you are gone. I said it will not happen. Why did God finally decide to take you away from us? I think Dad misses you the most.

Mommy... I am so alone here. I wish you bring me along with you. Its so painful here... Good Nite Mommy...

Missing you so much,
Candice
11.47pm

Ponder... Ponder... Ponder...

I ponder too often. Its becoming an increasingly difficult habit to kick. Its been acting against me lately since I become obsessed with everything.

Had coffee with Esther this morning. She offered to carve a career path for me and guess what?? I ponder and was worried the whole damn day. Heck! I feel like kicking myself in the ass. Maybe cause her offer make me hesitate about my initial decision to move out.

Heck... I think I rather sleep now... Stop Stop STOP PONDERING!!!

P/S: Dad bought some doggy bones and biscuits for Mocha... Seems like Mocha is winning him over. Talk about someone who cannot be bothered about him... I think not~

2:36 pm in the office…

The ridiculous aircon is blasting away. If office management had made some sense to increase the temperature within the building, we probably be saving a few thousand bucks on our electricity bill. Here I am typing away with frozen limbs. Even my pink winter jacket does not keep me warm anymore. Plus everyone is complaining how ridiculously cold our office is these days. Maybe I should start a fire within the BE square... muahaha burning away credit files to keep us warm... With amount of filing and abnormally high paper wastage everyday... we probably have enuff "fuel" to last us till Christmas. Hooray!!!

Right... my colleagues are probably reading this and if they decided to report me.. I am dead fish...

After my initial excitement earlier this week... I really have no mood to work. I had thought I might not need to work with LAZY people anymore. Alas... the negotiation fell through but I don’t really regret since I was pretty unwilling to leave my beloved team mates. Obviously not referring to the LAZY person. It irks me that I still have to face her given the following reasons:

- ugly and she thinks she is damn gorgeous
- yet wears the least clothing... YIKES! Think short skirt, low cut, bareback, no bra with lots, lots and LOTS of fats spilling out
- has over 300 of her photo as her screensaver
- comes to work at 9+ though we start at 8.30
- always find ways to make us do her work
- always on the phone and smsing
- and the long list just goes on...

For those of you who thinks that I am exaggerating, I am not lor, she is sibei disgusting! Damn... I feel so mean but she really irritates me!!!

Haha... if I feel mean enuff for the day I might just post her big fat photo up here.

Have a good weekend people... I need a good rest

I am upset at how i view life... always been all serious... i wish i loosen up and break some rules.

I am OVER YOU... hahah!

Life is just beginning and its gonna be the best years of my life.